Humans relate things to another….
We use compare and contrast on our quest in life in love and our reality.
Good bad beautiful and ugly.. Maybe this helps us understand things better maybe it just helps us mold our selves together to survive.
We grasp the moments in life to paint pictures in our minds to create the memories we hold forever.
If it wasn’t in our nature to have such emotion for everything we do we wouldn’t make the beautiful words that make the lyrics that match the melodies that play so sweet while we lay in a field and watch the stars dance across the sky.
I play a moment in my head where the difference between a love of many years and a love of a few split seconds in my life.
My love of many years is the boy from my neighborhood who I grow up watch turn into a man who love another women but years later confessed his love for me as I was there before during and after the love he fell for first…
My love of a few split seconds was a boy who I had classes with in high school who I was attracted to but not enough to act on it but years later he came back from the military and I found myself talking and spending time with him…. But the moment of his split second love starts like this I watched this boy with a mess up head and a big great heart with the twitch of his wrists strum across the strings of a amazing acoustic guitar. And that was the moment I saw his blue eyes reach my mind as I quickly refocused I focused on his finger that’s played a melody that made my heart sing a song of true happiness. That series of amazing events such as that one didn’t last long but its moments like that make you hope you find someone who can make you equally happy.
As far as my love of many years a lot of tears shed a lot of broken pieces fell off my beat and battered heart. A lot of hurtful wasted words and actions but not every love story as a happy ending so with that I let go of everything I thought it could be and let it shape me into that independent strong willed individual I am now. Although it has made my bitter towards future feelings upon anyone I always keep the positive mentality that everyone deserves happiness and everyone deserves to be loved
